Archive for 2011

It's falling again

Thursday, December 29, 2011 § 1


Only for you

Friday, September 9, 2011 § 0

I've returned from my far away home: the Dominican Republic. It won't be so far away in just one short year. I met someone. He's my little secret.

Signing off,

Beauty is sometimes ugly

Friday, July 29, 2011 § 1

It's all I have, and it's all I need to lose.

Signing off,

It's love

Friday, July 15, 2011 § 3

I'm back
I'm back
I'm back
I'm back
Hey bitches, I'm back.

Because my heart has filled like a hot air balloon with love for all of you.

Thursday, May 5, 2011 § 3

I love you all so much. Truly. You stick with me through my rough patches. Actually, I don't blog much now because I don't have a computer. I am relying on my mom's computer, which is not working out well. I have been working, so I am very close to buying my own computer soon. When I do, your lovely pages will be smeared with my name everywhere. I don't know what I would do without my little blog, without a place to express myself freely. I will come back soon!

Signing off,

Nobody wins, except for everyone but you.

Monday, April 4, 2011 § 4

White on white,
Pure on pure,
Perfect on perfect.
Why concentrate on that when there are so many colors around?
The colors will stain the white,
Why try to avoid it?
The colors will seep through;
They will trickle down to the whitest spot.
The colors will bleed until there is nothing left.
There will be nothing left.
All you can do is stand by and watch.
You will watch everything you've worked for slow away.
The white will flow away with shame replacing it.
Oozing colors will dry, and nothing will be the same.

Signing off,

Once you enter a black hole, sit back and wait for your limbs to disconnect.

Friday, April 1, 2011 § 2

I'm back. I've written so much. My poems explain my life, so I'll share.

I am a nobody trying to find a purpose.
Empty, alone, and drained.
My mind runs wild when all I want it to do is shut the fuck up.
Why must my thoughts criticize so harshly?
I just want some sleep, but my wishes are never granted.

Signing off,

Don't be fooled, I don't forgive easily.

Saturday, February 26, 2011 § 3

Things are so bad. I need a way out. Fast.

The blink of an eye

Monday, February 21, 2011 § 0

You're with him.
You talk.
You laugh.
"Alex, you know Meg. We're back together!"
You stare.
Your eyes water.
"Sorry, I have to go to the bathroom. Something fell in my eye."
You turn around.
They stare.
You walk.
You jog.
You run.
You sprint.
The memories won't go.
They're like glue.
The love won't go.
It squeezes hard.
You fall.
It won't let go.
It hurts.
It squeezes your lungs.
You gasp for air.
You lie there on the brown gum-filled floor.
Not waiting.
Not thinking.
Just hurting.

Signing off,

She left without a word, because there was nothing to say.

Monday, January 10, 2011 § 2

The pain in her chest was unbearable.
Flames spreading across, consuming her lungs, ribs, heart.
A black hole, but hot like a magnifying glass reflecting the sun on her skin.
Her heart, gone, just like that.
No longer together, no longer present.
The realization only brought relief.
Relief, because if she had her heart, it would remind her of the boy.
The boy with the rough hands.
The hands that roamed everywhere.
The hands that struck her when she refused.
The hands that left a bruise on her neck.
A bruise that she will have to explain to her mother.
Yes, her heart gone is a good thing.

Signing off,

I'm loving real good.

Friday, January 7, 2011 § 2

I'm in love with this picture.

I'm in love with this boy, but he doesn't know it yet.

I'm in love with Nicki Minaj.

I'm in love with cute kisses.

I'm in love with bright red hair, like mine.

I'm in love with this library.

I'm in love with black and white pictures.

Nobody can deny his beauty.

Signing off,

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Two thousand and ten. Could have been better, but I loved it.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011 § 1

Two thousand and ten. A simple number, yet so much more. The best year of my short life so far. A year in which I grew so much, and I don't mean that as in inches. Favorite times?

The first day of the year- the last day in which my whole family has been reunited at my mother's crazy parties.
Meeting and getting to know my best friend, Julio.
Losing my best friend, A- this allowed me to meet my currently amazing friends, and to let go of so much immaturity.
Traveling! Especially to my favorite place in the world, the Dominican Republic.
Seeing my twin cousin Lorena more than the usual once a year. She is one of the most inspirational people in my life, and has helped me through everything. Unfortunately we live in different countries.
Learning how to perform surgery which will be my future career.
Learning how to drive, although I still can't take my permit test for another five months.
Meeting the most amazing friends anyone could have.
Going to a new school, and improving my grades incredibly.
Learning to appreciate the little moments.

Sorry for the long list. It was truly a fabulous year. As for how Christmas went? (Not so) Merry fucking Christmas. Me and my siblings did not receive any presents this year, because of a financial crisis that has thankfully ended now. We did however clean for seven hours.

New Years Eve? I did enjoy it. My cousin who I never see anymore, because he attends the University of Virginia, stayed for a week at my house. My mother and him cooked a delicious lasagna. My family and I watched the whole new years eve countdown on MTV together. After, around one in the morning, my cousin, my brother, and I picked up one of my best friends, tried going to a party which apparently got canceled, walked around in the freezing night trying to find the right house, went to the wrong house with Brazilians in it, stayed and got drinks, and partied with complete strangers. That pretty much sums it up.

I hope 2011 is even better than 2010, and for all my lovely followers, you made my year so much better for just reading the nonsense that fills this blog up.

Happy New Year!

Signing off,