I feel so under appreciated all the time. I seriously wonder why I do anything. Why does it matter so much to myself that I have to be the best at everything? It's not like anyone cares. I hide and hide, but nobody even pays attention. When other people do things that I do regularly do, all of a sudden they're the most wonderful people alive. All the time I wish I had the fucking balls to do crazy and damaging shit, so maybe someone out there will notice me.